Blooms of Darkness: A Novel - Hardcover

AHARON APPELFELD is the author of more than forty works of fiction and nonfiction, including The Iron Tracks, Until the Dawn's Light (both winners of the National Jewish Book Award), The Story of a Life (winner of the Prix Médicis Étranger), and Badenheim 1939. Other honors he has received include the Giovanni Boccaccio Literary Prize, the Nelly Sachs Prize, the Israel Prize, the Bialik Prize, and the MLA Commonwealth Award. Blooms of Darkness won the Independent Foreign Fiction Prize in 2012 and was short-listed for the Man Booker International Prize in 2013. Born in Czernowitz, Bukovina (now part of Ukraine), in 1932, he died in Israel in 2018.

Chapter 3
 
The ghetto is thinning out. Now they are snatching old people and children in houses and in the streets. Hugo spends most of the day in the dark cellar, reading and playing chess by lantern light. The thick darkness plunges him into early sleep. In his sleep he escapes from the gendarmes by climbing a tree, but in the end he falls into a deep pit. When he wakes up, he is glad that the fall didn’t hurt him.
 
Every few hours his mother comes to see him. She brings him a slice of bread spread with fat, and sometimes an apple or a pear. Hugo knows she is denying herself food to give him more. He implores her to eat a portion of the food, but she refuses.
 
Again, another transport. Hugo stands at the narrow window and watches. There are shoves, screams, and bitter fights. In the pressing crowd, Frieda’s colorful figure stands out. She is wearing a flowery dress, her hair is disheveled, and from a distance it seems that the shoving is making her laugh. She waves her straw hat as though she hadn’t been caught but was going of her own free will on vacation to a resort.
 
“Mama, I saw Frieda in the transport.”
 
“Impossible.”
 
“With my very eyes I saw her.”
 
In the evening Hugo’s mother finds out that Frieda has been seized and deported without any of her belongings. The great hope that her Ukrainian boyfriend would give them refuge has been destroyed.
 
Hugo’s mother speaks more and more about Mariana. Mariana lives outside of the town, and they will apparently make their way to her through the sewer pipes. The pipes are wide, and after midnight little sewage runs in them. Hugo’s mother tries to speak in her ordinary tone of voice, and from time to time she gives it a tinge of adventure. Hugo knows she is doing that to calm him down.
 
“Where is Otto?”
 
“I assume that he’s also hiding in a cellar.” His mother speaks curtly.
 
Since his mother told him they would make their way to Mariana through the sewer pipes, Hugo has been trying to recall her face from his memory. His efforts evoke only her height and long arms, which hugged his mother at the meetings when he was present. Those meetings were mostly fleeting. His mother would give her two packages, and Mariana would hug her warmly.
 
“Does Mariana live in the country?” Hugo gropes in this new darkness.
 
“In a village.”
 
“Will I be able to play outside?”
 
“I don’t think so. Mariana will explain everything to you. We’ve been friends ever since we were girls. She’s a good woman, but fate hasn’t been kind to her. You will have to be very disciplined and do exactly what she tells you to.”
 
What is the meaning of “fate hasn’t been kind to her”? Hugo wonders. It is hard for him to imagine that tall, pretty woman dejected or humiliated.
 
His mother repeats, “Everyone has his own fate.”
 
That sentence, like the one before, is inscrutable.
 
Meanwhile, Hugo’s mother takes a knapsack and a suitcase down into the cellar. She places books in the knapsack, and the chess set and the dominoes. She packs clothes and shoes in the suitcase. It is stuffed and heavy.
 
“Don’t worry. Mariana will take care of everything. I spoke with her. She liked you,” his mother says with a trembling voice.
 
“And where will you go, Mama?”
 
“I’ll look for a hiding place in the nearby village.”
 
His mother has stopped reading the Bible to him, but after Hugo puts out the lantern, he hears her calling to him. Her voice is soft, melodious, and penetrating.
 
“You must behave like a grown-up,” his mother says, not sounding like herself. Hugo wants to reply, I’ll do everything that Mariana tells me to do, but he stops himself.
 
At night sounds come from outside and shock the cellar. They are mainly the sobbing of women whose children were snatched away from them. The women were daring and ran after the gendarmes, pleading with them to return their children. The pleas drove the gendarmes mad, and they beat the women furiously.
 
After the kidnappings, silence reigns. Only here and there a suppressed sob is heard.
 
Hugo lies awake. Everything that happens in the house and in the street affects him. An expression that he heard by chance returns to him at night with intensified clarity. It is hard for him to read and hard for him to play chess. Images and sounds fill him.
 
“Where is Otto?” he keeps asking his mother.
 
“In a cellar.”
 
Hugo is sure that Otto, too, has been snatched, thrown into a truck, and is now on his way to the Ukraine.
 
His mother sits with her legs crossed and describes the place where Mariana lives. “She has a big room and within it is a big closet. In the daytime, you’ll be in the big room, and at night you’ll sleep in the closet.”
 
“At Mariana’s, are they also liable to seize me?” Hugo asks cautiously.
 
“Mariana will watch over you like a hawk.”
 
“Why will I have to sleep in the closet?”
 
“For safety’s sake.”
 
“Will she read out of the Bible for me?”
 
“If you ask her.”
 
“Does she know how to play chess?”
 
“I imagine not.”
 
The short questions and answers sound to Hugo like final preparations for a secret journey. Sitting in the cellar oppresses him, and he is eagerly looking forward to the day when he’ll put the knapsack on his back and go down into the sewer with his mother.
 
“Is there a school there?” he suddenly asks.
 
“My dear, you aren’t going to go to school. You have to be in hiding,” his mother says in a different tone of voice.
 
That sounds like a punishment to him, and he asks, “Will I be in hiding all the time?”
 
“Until the end of the war.”
 
He is relieved. The war, he has heard, will not be long.
 
Hugo’s questions, asked as he gropes blindly, pain his mother. Usually she answers with a complete sentence or gives half an answer, but she doesn’t deceive him. She has a rule: never deceive. But there were times, to admit the truth, when she blurred things, distracted him, and concealed facts from him. For that reason, her conscience bothers her. To overcome her twinges of conscience, she says, “You must be aware, listen to everything that’s said, and understand that we’re living in strange times. Nothing is the way it was.”
 
Hugo feels that his mother is distressed, and he says, “I’m listening, Mama. I listen all the time.”
 
“Thanks, dear,” his mother answers. She has been feeling recently that she has lost control over her words. They slip out of her mouth and don’t touch on the main point. For example, she wants to tell Hugo about Mariana and her profession, so that he will know and be careful, but all the words she tries to mobilize don’t help her.
 
“Excuse me,” she says suddenly.
 
“What for, Mama?”
 
“Nothing. My mistake,” she says, and she covers her mouth with a handkerchief.
 
Again Hugo is ill at ease. It seems to him that his mother wants to tell him a big secret, but that for some reason she
 
is hesitating. That hesitation makes him talk too much and repeat things he’s already told her.
 
“Does Mariana have children?” Hugo tries a different approach.
 
“She isn’t married.”
 
“What does she do?”
 
“She works.”
 
To conclude the interrogation, she says, “There’s no reason to ask so many questions. I repeat, Mariana is a good woman. She’ll watch over you like a hawk. I trust her.”
 
This time Hugo is insulted, and he says, “I won’t ask.”
 
“You’re allowed to ask, but you have to realize that there isn’t an answer to every question. There are things that it’s impossible to explain, and there are things that a boy of your age can’t understand.” To console him a bit, she adds, “Believe me, everything will be clear to you. In a short while you’ll understand a lot of things. You’re a smart boy, and even without answers, you’ll understand.” His mother opens her eyes wide, and they both smile.