Lying Awake - Softcover

The story hinges on Sister John's discovery that her visions are in fact the result of mild epileptic seizures. As she learns from her neurologist, temporal-lobe epilepsy commonly brings about "hypergraphia (voluminous writing), an intensification but also a narrowing of emotional response, and an obsessive interest in religion and philosophy." Dostoyevsky, the classic victim of this condition, wrote of his raptures: "There are moments, and it is only a matter of five or six seconds, when you feel the presence of eternal harmony.... If this state were to last more than five seconds, the soul could not endure it and would have to disappear." An exact description of Sister John's visions. The question she now faces is whether to go ahead with surgery--and risk obliterating both her spiritual life and her art--or cling to a state of grace that may actually be a delusion ignited by an electrochemical imbalance.

Using a very limited palette, Mark Salzman creates an austere masterpiece. The real miracle of Lying Awake is that it works perfectly on every level: on the realistic surface, it captures the petty squabbles and tiny bursts of radiance of life in a Los Angeles monastery; deeper down it probes the nature of spiritual illumination and the meaning and purpose of prayer in everyday life; and, at bottom, there lurks a profound meditation on the mystery of artistic inspiration. Salzman made a highly auspicious debut in 1986 with Iron and Silk, a memoir of his years in China, and since then he has dramatically changed key in every book--most recently from the absurdist American suburban chronicle of Lost in Place to the artistic-crisis-cum-courtroom-drama novel The Soloist. Lying Awake is quieter and more sober than Salzman's previous narratives, but it is also more accomplished, more thought-provoking, and more highly crafted. --David Laskin

"A remarkable novel: Salzman explores neurological illness and monastic life -- both of which are frequently misunderstood -- with insight, sympathetic accuracy and respect, and in doing so he reaches beyond experience to the heart of the religious requirement."
-- Karen Armstrong, author of The History of God

"Mark Salzman conveys the nature of convent life without romanticizing it. His respect for the interior life of the nun is impressive -- no mystic 'mumbo-jumbo,' no trying to explain away religious wisdom by pompous use of medical diagnoses -- but simply a touching portrait of a woman trying to strike a balance between science and soul."
-- Kathleen Norris, author of The Cloister Walk

"Salzman's talent for calling forth the details and essence of unfamiliar realms is well known... What Salzman conveys with perfect clarity is that momentary, extraordinary mental state in which physical pain becomes pure, lucid grace poised between corporeal reality and eternity, a state that Sister John desires to prolong for a lifetime.... Written with simple elegance."
-- Publishers Weekly